3 Boys and a Mom - Diary of a Tagteam

Well Deven is in bed already and Dilen will be going down very shortly... I have to go to the day office tomorrow... TG it's only for one day, I am not looking forward to being there at all... I am having lunch Tuesday w/Cindy and Alicia... They will be bringing their pumpkins and the babies... I THINK I am up for this... I do'nt know.... Cindy has been great and gave me the option of with or without the baby... and Alicia has been really great too... she sent me 2 really wonderful emails and has a book she is gonna loan me to read... Strong Medicine on Lifetime is advertising tonight's show with a clip of one of the doctors saying "An otherwise healthy 33 yo woman shouldn't miscarry for no reason" Somehow I don't think I will be watching that episode.... those SAME words have been running thru my mind for almost 2 weeks now... I have to say having the boys around has really been helpful to me in some ways... every now and then while we are playing they start laughing with this pure joy that just fills my heart... Other times I look at them sleeping and try to remember them as infants and ache for the baby I won't hold......




Well now that I am done w/that cry I am gonna go snuggle with Dilen while he drifts off to sleep.... Til next time...